I have been really trying to get back to you, even if it is a glimpse of how I once was.

I want this again. I miss it.

Friday evening meeting spent in company of friends, coffee, and the WORD.
Sunday morning meeting with a large number of believers
Daily Devotionals-writing in depth about them.
Wed night praising the lord. These were all good things. I fall in and out of this so much and when I was living back in Erie, this all had meaning I saw my purpose and began to understand the professional road I would move down. Now here I am, a home owner in pittsburgh, working at the VA (my first real job) and seeking out something more exciting. All these good things are happening that the minor things, that normaly would break me down have no effect on my dwelling state of energy.

I have another meeting with the transplant team, I have a great shot at getting this job, and I hope it is mine, I want to work and learn. I want to be so tired from day to day. I am so close to having the american dream, all I have to do is get married and paint my fence white. Niether of these tasks are impossible. Justin is the man i will marry, and my fence is wood brown.

God has given me so much, it is time for me to give back the effort and live for him. Jen