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That Old feeling

Last night I viewed that old feeling. This particular movie boasted about being with the one you really love, even if you don't know. It also contained what being with the wrong person does to you, and how in a minute you'll forget your married or have a commitment to someone else. I think the movie had a lot of funny parts to keep your attenshion, but it showed really shitty views on life, like adultry.

so here it is that old feeling.

everyone needs a place of land, to piece his stop, between the unwanted and want of man.

and its been so exciting. Last evening i watched the cider house rules, installed some shit on my laptop, grames will be tonight. Then Andy, Craig and Becky came over. We drank Straub sat along a fire, I cooked chicken for becky and craig and then i ate some with justin haa haa, I didn't mean to eat it-I concokced some wild mariande-pretty much i just poored a bunch of shit in bowl and began mixing it up.

this morning though-rough-at 1230 now rough. Im sure at 4 o'clock rough and 430 when i leave rough.

It was raining this morning so i got a ride to work from justin, bane got a bath this morning. Its thursday I want friday to be here.

The Cider House Rules

This movie involved a very serious plot and incuring thought to write it, it is based on a book. Most movies based off of a book are usually outstanding. The moral of this story is or more say what you get out of this movie is no matter where you are an orphanage or working on a apple farm, life is damaged. There is crime, hatred, cruelity towards others, and harm. This little boy learns the trade of being a doctor, delivering and aborting children-along with leaving all he new and working on a farm, picking apples, here he found waiting and seeing, love, being needed, honest hard work, and a co-worker harmed by her father in an inbreeding fashion.

I'm not sure what to make of this movie yet, I would like to view it again, but ahh I would also like to never see it. The movie left an imprint on me.

"good night princes of maine, good night kings of new england."

things ill be doing this summer

http://www.botanicgardenwpa.org/

flowers!
http://www.aviary.org/
Birds!
http://www.laurelcaverns.com/
Caves!!!

wine tasting at the Warhol

the southside trails for biking and blading.

:) fun atimes ahead.

Change. Change. Change

Things you think your good at, well I thought I was good at a lot of things, like singing and screaming-ha only to find out when i tried I AM terrible. So I stoped-trying to please everyone else or put myself out there more, because I was already out there in the crowd. It borught alot of thinking about am I myself, of replica's of everyone else? Did I ever do anything or like anything because someone I knew already liked it-I have gained interest in a lot of things because of other people.

Things I've done for myself that have nothing to do with influnce-be vegitarian, get tattoo's, like really old music like billie holiday, and love old movies with Dorris Day.

My brother influnced my love of metal. Hardcore was influnced by my once circle of friends. Dressing like just stupid-was my own fault. Now I like name brand crap, it sorta fits better.

This post is turning into what I didn't want it to.

just another story of progress

Deep breath. another day at work, what will really come of this. I have a little work to do nothing to stressful. I went to harrisburgh, well the area-spent most of the time in harrisburgh-Had a good time-although I can't catch up from being gone. Visiting people is gettting harder and harder as each year gains on my time, so are hang overs. I have no desire to drink, the beer fest at the sharp edge is this saterday-I want to go to the park with my puppy and rollar blade and get the house and my computer in order. That computer is a hole other story though.

Saterday becky and I are talking, and Justin got pretty upset. Then bedtime came around and he was just bizarae and stupid, I was really upset with him, especially because he woke me up. If somethings are just that important he needs to get over himself-because he knew coming in what wouldn't go.

That is what I can really say about him. Testing the waters-it got to the point where thoughts of apartment hunting began. Getting my own place just to not be around him. I like living with him and doing stuff-but geez he has to be a man baout things, and I have to be the bigger person, which I am having a hard time doing.

The caverns were spectacular, i always loved that place minus the corny stories. Also the brewhouse, I tried sushi-like fish sushi-Tuna it was really good not so good on my stomich.

Tonight I am going to clean the apartment and put my clothes away along with iron the dress shirts that are clean, then go to sleep. ha after justin gets home from kung fu he and i are either going to run or ride are bikes. Tomorrow we have to do laundry. I'd like to get up early saterday and do it, he likes to stay in bed till 10. so i guess ill write something of value with a totally different post.

I haven't used blogger in almost a year. I remeber starting this because it has so many more features than Livejournal.

I like the social part of Livejournal, just haven't explored life here i guess.
Work also have Lj blocked.

I picked this title from a boysetsfire album-The crying the screaming:my voice is being born, and it is absolutely genious for a blog username and title.

Work was busy and now it is serverly draged out, along with the fact I am stuck here until 515ish. Then my lovely walk home, I usually look forward to that walk, sometimes i am just to lazy and Justin picks me up.

Last night I went to the smiling moose, and ate some pizza. and drank some beer. I head a band American Outlaws from New Orleans. I bought the demo, first demo i have boughten-it was the only band i liked that played the hole night. I went to see tommy gutless-they were really terrible. The more and more i go to shows the more I want to just sit at home. Its so loud, I wear ear plugs and still feel deaf after I walk out of there.

Last night before bed-or while bed was happening. I said something terrible. I dont remember it, Justin told me this morning. I feel aweful. Just seems I can't be satified-and this thought has nothing to do with that situation, everything about me and him. I love him, with all that I am, but I can't show it, I can't express it-I feel that I have lost this ability of these things, and that is why I am failing. I never say the right things, seems like everything in negitive, I block what might be wrong out, and I never go back to it.

On a higer note, I am going over to Heather's house in bloomfield for some hangout time, along with packing for the great trip to Elizabethtown tomorrow. I am visiting one of my closest friends and I get to met her man, she gets to met my little dog.

My laptop was fixed now all i will have to do is get it back and place wonderful pictures from it on here! I ordered an awesome new digital camera. i am addicted to electronics and IKEA, without those I would be so bored.