I haven't used blogger in almost a year. I remeber starting this because it has so many more features than Livejournal.

I like the social part of Livejournal, just haven't explored life here i guess.
Work also have Lj blocked.

I picked this title from a boysetsfire album-The crying the screaming:my voice is being born, and it is absolutely genious for a blog username and title.

Work was busy and now it is serverly draged out, along with the fact I am stuck here until 515ish. Then my lovely walk home, I usually look forward to that walk, sometimes i am just to lazy and Justin picks me up.

Last night I went to the smiling moose, and ate some pizza. and drank some beer. I head a band American Outlaws from New Orleans. I bought the demo, first demo i have boughten-it was the only band i liked that played the hole night. I went to see tommy gutless-they were really terrible. The more and more i go to shows the more I want to just sit at home. Its so loud, I wear ear plugs and still feel deaf after I walk out of there.

Last night before bed-or while bed was happening. I said something terrible. I dont remember it, Justin told me this morning. I feel aweful. Just seems I can't be satified-and this thought has nothing to do with that situation, everything about me and him. I love him, with all that I am, but I can't show it, I can't express it-I feel that I have lost this ability of these things, and that is why I am failing. I never say the right things, seems like everything in negitive, I block what might be wrong out, and I never go back to it.

On a higer note, I am going over to Heather's house in bloomfield for some hangout time, along with packing for the great trip to Elizabethtown tomorrow. I am visiting one of my closest friends and I get to met her man, she gets to met my little dog.

My laptop was fixed now all i will have to do is get it back and place wonderful pictures from it on here! I ordered an awesome new digital camera. i am addicted to electronics and IKEA, without those I would be so bored.