it has been a good while since I have updated this silly little blog. There hasn't really been anything going on, or and changes in my normal routine, which would leave me with nothing to talk about on here.

Each morning I have to tell myself to stay postive and not bite anyone's head off. It isn't working at all, well a little bit-i try to be pleasent and lessen my hate.

I havn't been using the gym very much this week-it just seesm like everyday is different and requires different needs mentally, and all i want to do is lay in my bed and be lazy, extremely lazy. but tonight i am going to lift and then ill run on the treadmill for a long time, and call it a night, i like the sound of this.

i saw the worst sand strom of my life the other day, well it was more of a dust storm. IT was discusting, you couldn't see 20 feet in front of you, and your hair, clothing, and glasses were coated in dust, almost like a day at the beach, but there is no beach here, nothing wonderful about here, except I am one day closer to leaving.

I have been thinking of trying to do a photo essay about something but what? Mr. Graves adventures-i should get back to that project, I have to come up with about 180 more pictures of hime doing different things, I just do not have the brightest ideas right now.

spending money

spending money is so much fun!

I bought this kick ass mug for beer-it may be attached at my hip when i return home.

Also bought some other crap to entertain me here.

In the photography arena of purchases-I bought a fisheye lense, i saw a price i could resist from a decent camera company. 10mm/2.8 fisheye lense by sigma is now mine. Something amazing for when i get home.

Also-begining to build up the film collection.

Model#: 190220
Products Name: Arista EDU Ultra B&W 200 iso 120 size
Unit Price: 2.39 Qty: 10

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Model#: 190242
Products Name: Arista EDU Ultra B&W 200 iso 35mm x 24 exp.
Unit Price: 1.99 Qty: 20

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Model#: 02300418
Products Name: Fujicolor Pro 400H 400 iso iso 120 size - 5 roll Pro Pack
Unit Price: 18.99 Qty: 1

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Model#: 8314098
Products Name: Kodak Ektar 100 120 size - 5 Roll Pro Pack
Unit Price: 17.99 Qty: 1

next pay check I am going to get tripod plates and 100bucks worth infa red 120 film that equals-10 rolls. maybe ill get the expired stuffs.

i have 4 new cigars on their way to me, yoga blocks, and sport bras-yes life is sweet.

That is all for now.

go your own way rid lies burn the stitches that held your eyes shut vacate and wonder rid time take off reminders and strive to shine you said you've got it and i believe that you've got it and that you'll survive our hearts have exchanged the gifts that carry us over the walls that blind us the walls that bind us the walls that stand too tall to conquer alone bring back your wisdom to trade bring back the words you've saved teach me so that i may teach on we reach we learn we don't we burn on the inside as well as the out we search to solve how to not dissolve on the inside as well as the out so you're at war with yourself with space and time you'll find a breakthrough if you don't lose what's real you have our blessing clear your conscience and ride away
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even though you won't see what i'm seeing i would love for you to feel what i'm feeling- the impact and the ease after rest assured the pain will fade right outside the inspiration is told i'll carry on what i know that is what i need for my sickness- a transition to new medium breakaway from the world and stick to rhythm rest assured the pain will fade if i don't walk blindside i'll roll right if i hold sight i'll roll right i'm sure we see that same way just not from the same place i need a medium i need a balance

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